tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post8356676207836683861..comments2023-11-06T18:12:49.569-05:00Comments on Dreams of a Country Girl: EmptyDreams of a Country Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17983657240398205766noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-48922288523766650252008-07-29T08:17:00.000-04:002008-07-29T08:17:00.000-04:00I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the others los...I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the others losses as well. It reaffirms just how blessed I am to have my precious babies. Sending you some love, sister.Krafty Christyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03749818346785899714noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-72871850751020723512008-07-28T16:00:00.000-04:002008-07-28T16:00:00.000-04:00I had almost the same experience, except I had bee...I had almost the same experience, except I had been pregnant before, and I knew something wasn't right. At about 6 weeks along I lost the "symptoms" of being pregnant, except I didn't miscarry. We were also traveling, moving to another state, and I finally decided that my misgivings were all my imagination, and as I was 13 weeks along I decided it was time to but some maternity clothes as my old ones were for the wrong season. That night I also miscarried in the toilet and I was terrified to look to see what was there. I ended up in the hospital and had to have a D&C as I wouldn't stop cramping and bleeding. I was lucky as because I knew something was wrong I never let myself become attached, so I didn't grieve as you are. Unfortunately, later that year, I miscarried a little boy that I carried 20 weeks. That was hard, terribly, terribly hard. He was perfect, I just had him too soon. It has been over 20 years and I still grieve for him. It has gotten easier over the years, and I know I will get to see him some day, and tell him how much he was loved. I will pray for you, and I am sending you a hug through cyberspace, you are not alone, I also understand.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-17439072393424777562008-07-28T15:26:00.000-04:002008-07-28T15:26:00.000-04:00It is so hard to deal with that -especially when y...It is so hard to deal with that -especially when you werent at home. I had a miscarriage at 13 weeks-in between my first and second child. It is so hard. I am sorry you still having the feelings from it. Here's a hug from me !!Ansbaughmomhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09100663642123824035noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-74891267281313364752008-07-28T15:08:00.000-04:002008-07-28T15:08:00.000-04:00This must be a very difficult time for you! I am ...This must be a very difficult time for you! I am so sorry.CindyDiannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13670606436554430600noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-78033711455978035662008-07-28T14:32:00.000-04:002008-07-28T14:32:00.000-04:00I can't imagine. But feel honored that you would s...I can't imagine. But feel honored that you would share something so intimate with all of us.<BR/>If I could make my arms reach I would give you a great big ol hug.!!!♥ Becky ♥https://www.blogger.com/profile/17706806252134931704noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-30372750727540245302008-07-28T13:35:00.000-04:002008-07-28T13:35:00.000-04:00i have no words!! except that you made me cry and...i have no words!! except that you made me cry and i wish we lived closer because i would bring you a DP lipsmacker and a hug.Marchellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10837513631701432273noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-3040856814789448202008-07-28T11:06:00.000-04:002008-07-28T11:06:00.000-04:00I'm sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how diff...I'm sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how difficult it was too hold in your emotions around a group of that size. I bet you were glad to get back in the privacy of your own home to mourn. Look at the beauties you have now :) Very precious!ptamom3https://www.blogger.com/profile/16818782550325080462noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-30673769511967397342008-07-28T10:07:00.000-04:002008-07-28T10:07:00.000-04:00oh girl! that was so painful for me to read so i ...oh girl! that was so painful for me to read so i can't imagine how you must have and still do feel. <BR/><BR/>this verse comes to mind...<BR/>"for I know the plans I have for you", Jer 29:11<BR/><BR/>we may never know or understand, but He does. <BR/><BR/>thinking of you today.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-2569127904281402912008-07-28T08:19:00.000-04:002008-07-28T08:19:00.000-04:00I'm praying God will hold your hand today Country ...I'm praying God will hold your hand today Country Girl.<BR/>Love, DanaDana and Daisyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14006886855600007312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-48740520246530347822008-07-28T07:36:00.000-04:002008-07-28T07:36:00.000-04:00What Makes A Mother...Author: UnknownI thought of ...What Makes A Mother...<BR/>Author: Unknown<BR/><BR/>I thought of you and closed my eyes<BR/>And prayed to God today<BR/>I asked "What makes a Mother?"<BR/>And I know I heard Him say.<BR/><BR/>"A Mother has a baby"<BR/>This we know is true<BR/>"But God can you be a Mother,<BR/>When your baby's not with you?"<BR/><BR/>"Yes, you can," He replied<BR/>With confidence in His voice<BR/>"I give many women babies,<BR/>When they leave is not their choice.<BR/><BR/>Some I send for a lifetime,<BR/>And others for the day.<BR/>And some I send to feel <BR/>your womb,<BR/>But there's no need to stay."<BR/><BR/>"I just don't understand this<BR/>God, I want my baby to be here."<BR/>He took a deep breath and <BR/>cleared His throat,<BR/>And then I saw the tear.<BR/><BR/>"I wish I could show you,<BR/>What your child is doing today.<BR/>If you could see your child's smile,With all the other<BR/>children and say...<BR/><BR/>We go to Earth to learn our lessons,of love and life and <BR/>fear.<BR/>My Mommy loved me oh so much,<BR/>I got to come strait here.<BR/><BR/>I feel so lucky to have a Mom,<BR/>Who had so much love for me.<BR/>I learned my lessons very quickly,<BR/>My Mommy set me free.<BR/><BR/>I miss my Mommy oh so much,<BR/>But I visit her every day.<BR/>When she goes to sleep,<BR/>On her pillow's where I lay<BR/><BR/>I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear.<BR/>Mommy don't be sad today,<BR/>I'm your baby and I'm here.'<BR/><BR/>"So you see my dear sweet ones,<BR/>your children are okay.<BR/>Your babies are born here in <BR/>My home,And this is where they'll stay.<BR/><BR/>They'll wait for you with Me,<BR/>Until your lesson's through.<BR/>And on the day that you come home<BR/>they'll be at the gates for you.<BR/><BR/>So now you see what makes a Mother,<BR/>It's the feeling in your heart<BR/>it's the love you had so much of<BR/>right from the very start<BR/><BR/>Though some on earth may not realize, you are a Mother.<BR/>Until their time is done.<BR/>They'll be up here with Me <BR/>one day and know that you are<BR/>the best one!"3SonsAreMyLovehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12688599717951245873noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-79542416070442456692008-07-28T00:34:00.000-04:002008-07-28T00:34:00.000-04:00I am so sorry for you loss CG. I experienced my o...I am so sorry for you loss CG. I experienced my own emptiness some years ago myself. It would have been my miracle Christmas baby. A part of me always grieves this loss over the holiday's.Treasia Stepphttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10126382668167560512noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-27852336801888303222008-07-27T23:32:00.000-04:002008-07-27T23:32:00.000-04:00Heart breaking! I am truly sorry for your loss. I ...Heart breaking! I am truly sorry for your loss. I too can relate, I am not ready to explain just yet. It has been 16 yrs.I remember everyday, the pain and heartache, I went through.. alone.My first husband was in total denial, no comfort there. I still remember, I still ache... I am sorry you had to go through the emptiness. You are strong for sharing.Train Wreckhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10935319684656879210noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-5759863960203298312008-07-27T23:18:00.000-04:002008-07-27T23:18:00.000-04:00wow, once again i felt like i was reading one of t...wow, once again i felt like i was reading one of the post i might would write! i know what you felt and what you still mourn! i was first told i could not conceive as a senior in high school, it didn't sink in until i got engaged and knew a family was our "next step". then out of the blue...pregnant and healthy and normal...for 13 weeks, then all in one day all of my planning and naming and changing, it ended! a few years after the birth of our twins, came another pregnancy, this time only 3 weeks in, i was now empty, again. the third miscarriage came while i was in the hospital with my father right after he got diagnosed with brain cancer. on the way home the dreaded spotting and another loss.... the 4th and 5th were twins. at 9 weeks, one lost in the fight for life, but the other was a fighter, it was on it's way to making it into my arms...until... the 14th week, when my body decided it needed to release the first twin, and like you i was told to go home, all would be fine, and the 2nd baby would be spared. i too could not flush, i handed my mass of baby to my husband to go place in the ground under a big oak in the yard. sleep was little that night, but the pain returned by morning and we went to the hospital, this one was not ready to lose it's life it fought a hard fight, it had a heart beat and was moving up until surgery time... the emotions are still so raw. but... my Father has a plan... not one i can always understand, but one i know is right for me. so here we are with four precious babies to hold and touch, but a piece of my heart is with the five that are sitting in the lap of Jesus waiting... God bless you and all of your children, the ones that walk beside you and the one that walks beside Him!spankihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06359943809431206878noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-88835427466509549192008-07-27T22:55:00.001-04:002008-07-27T22:55:00.001-04:00I'm sorry you had to go through that experience. ...I'm sorry you had to go through that experience. However, I'm glad IJ was there with you. Thank you for sharing. HUGS.Jennhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16802676910426739288noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-76371655207098386372008-07-27T22:55:00.000-04:002008-07-27T22:55:00.000-04:00I'm sorry you had to go through that experience. ...I'm sorry you had to go through that experience. However, I'm glad IJ was there with you. Thank you for sharing. HUGS.Jennhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16802676910426739288noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-56180231265837070202008-07-27T22:50:00.000-04:002008-07-27T22:50:00.000-04:00What an swful experience that must have been for y...What an swful experience that must have been for you and memory to have. My heart went out to you reading while reading this. ((HUGS))Traciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18186386640495846762noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-71168114402668553882008-07-27T22:43:00.000-04:002008-07-27T22:43:00.000-04:00I have been a lurker forever. I love reading abou...I have been a lurker forever. I love reading about all your adventures! You crack me up and have also made me cry. My experience of "feeling empty" was 3 and a half years ago. Regardless of what anyone says or how much time goes on, I still ask myself the what if and the why questions. We ended up adopting a one year old little boy a year later and then getting pregnant seven months later, but the first baby will also be a part of me and our family. You are much better at putting it into words. Thanks for sharing.Monicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08407843074787504842noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-657587615890775762008-07-27T22:26:00.000-04:002008-07-27T22:26:00.000-04:00God Bless you. Through your sharing, God will fin...God Bless you. Through your sharing, God will find a way to help heal others....and more healing for you.<BR/><BR/>His hands wrap around you in love and peace - for you AND the one who matters to you, still.Giraffe Spenderhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18297050606187011634noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945440151150745418.post-32018617122144916772008-07-27T22:20:00.000-04:002008-07-27T22:20:00.000-04:00Thank you for sharing what must be a deep and pain...Thank you for sharing what must be a deep and painful memory. I cannot imagine.Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10334957251889705326noreply@blogger.com