The past few days have been a whirlwind for me and have contained more changes than I have ever had in my life. I know I have been stressed and excited and apprehensive and scared and petrified and that was all just yesterday morning while seeing myself before my make-up session. But I continue the saga of my life in a quandary. I sit here worn out from crying and trying not to cry anymore. I have no idea how I feel or what I think. I just know I am THE UGLIEST crier on the face of the universe and I will not be posting pics of me tonight.
I am constantly trying to balance what I share on this blog, but tonight I am discouraged and I am just being me.
Do I share too much on here? Do I air all my dirty laundry? Am I one post away from scaring everyone away and receiving hate mail? Do you all really understand what a crazy lunatic I truly am?
On the other hand, this is my way of getting free therapy. And I always feel so much better after hearing from you. You all give the best advice. And I love you to smithereens. Please don't leave me, I need your acceptance in my life.
But tonight, I am beat down. Nothing seems to be going right. I am so discouraged -- mainly in myself. My kids are worn out. My husband is trying so hard. And I have fine lines and creases forming more and more around my eyes. I look like I am 8,421 years old with red puffy eyes. Basically I look like a really old boxer.
I am staying in a wonderful home with wonderful accommodations and wonderful food and I love the word wonderful. My cousins are WONDERFUL and the most hospitable people you have ever met in your life. And my three twerps are into EVERYTHING in their house.
We went and saw our new house tonight. And I am so Ms. Positive. With a capital "P." So, staying in line with my positive thinking, here is my POSITIVE list for my new home:
1. It has a great ceiling fan in the living room
2. It is 1.83 miles from a Starbucks
3. The master bedroom is larger
4. My husband tried -- so hard
5. And I love him to pieces for it
6. And I cannot imagine how hard it was for him
7. It has a Japanese Maple in the front lawn
8. It has lots of windows
9. My three twerps and hubby will make it a home
10. I can blog before and after pics
Here are some pics of today's festivities. My cousin is the BEST.
Tomorrow is a new day.