Sunday, March 30, 2008

Soak

It is 2:18 in the morning -- or at least I think that is what my clock says through the squint of my sleepy eyes. The wind howls, the kids sleep, the dog snores, I pray.

How many other mothers have been up just as I -- praying, crying, worrying, hoping, believing, seeking, asking, thanking? It seems the later is in short supply lately. Isn't it strange how much closer your walk becomes with Christ when you have children? I know mine has. At times I feel so helpless, so unqualified, so dependent on Him. I guess I am exactly where I should be, but hating how I get here -- out of my own insufficiency. I wish I was judged on my intentions instead of my actions. But alas...

I am up tonight ... seeking wisdom for me, my job, my Twerps, my Indiana Jones.Baby Twerp -- Lord, show him he is valuable. Show him he is loved. Do I spend enough time with him? Am I as attentive to him as the others? Show me my weaknesses, but gently please. Heal his ears, grow his heart. I pray for security and the knowledge of whole acceptance. Protect his gentle heart. His footsteps are ordered by you. I thank you that he will be at the right place, doing the right things, at the right time.

Middle Twerp -- Oh what a joy, but Lord, help tame his tongue. Help me teach him. Protect him from his dare devil stunts. Thank you so much for his curiosity and love for reading. Help me guide him, teach him, direct him. Continue to grow his love for family. I thank you for his leadership and deep roots in Christ and family. I also pray for obedience -- for him, not me.

Eldest Twerp -- Thank you for her. Where would I be without her? In a dark corner curled in the fetal position, rocking and sucking my thumb. Thank you for her wit, intelligence and passion. Help her with the changes occurring in her world. Help her grow into a young lady. Help her not to just cope, but flourish. Protect her.

Indiana Jones -- Wow, thank you, thank you, thank you! Thank you for a man that is passionate for you and his family. Thank you for a leader, a strong self secure man. Thank you for a provider -- for a man that I respect beyond measure. Help him right now as he is away. Protect him, give him wisdom. Help me think of him more often than myself.

Lord, help me become the woman You knew I could be.

Lord, melt away more of me so I can soak in more of you.
He gives to the earth snow like a blanket of wool; He scatters the frost like ashes.
He casts forth His ice like crumbs; who can stand before His cold?
He sends out His word, and melts ice and snow; He causes His wind to blow, and the waters flow.

~Psalm 147:16-18

10 comments:

Michelle said...

I love todays post! The pictures are fabulous and I love your prayers.

I don't normally do this.. but....I tag you. read the rules at my blog

Treasia said...

Your post brought tears to my eyes. It reminded me of many many nights when my hubby was working away from home and how I sought (and still do) our Lord for comfort. He will return before you know it.

Jubilee on Earth said...

I absolutely love this post. Beautiful photos, beautiful prayers, beautiful family.

Indeed you must feel His love, for you are so very blessed.

:o)

~Maria

ptamom3 said...

Awesome post- you are so in touch with your family and so understanding of their needs. You also are a great writer! God has blessed you richly! The pictures are beautiful as well!

Heidi said...

I came over here to discuss your pitiful lack of Rice Krispie Treat making experience, but instead you have me in tears and it no longer seems appropriate. We'll have to talk about those some other day...

Beautiful prayers, beautiful pictures to illustrate. Beautiful verses. Off to pray for my family and yours...

Kim said...

How sweet it is to talk with Jesus in the early morning hours.

Tag, you're it.

Oh, and did you see your award. You'll have to go a few posts down to find it, I'm thinking.

Kila said...

Such a wonderful post, and a good lesson and reminder for me.

Your children are very blessed.

Love the beautiful photos, too!!

hope4grace said...

Wow, very inspirational! Your strength and your faith shine through.

Ranch Mommy said...

I love this post!! I can't tell you how many times my prayer's mirror yours!!

justgottalaugh said...

AMEN!