Anyhoo, you have no idea the support and encouragement I take from your comments and emails (THANKS CHRISTY!). I truly do value each of you and love you and appreciate you in my life. Really. And I honestly feel better already -- one day at a time. One day at a time. And you all are right -- I would not be happy as a SAHM. But God totally has my back, he proved it today.
Just as I was feeling the waves of panic and stress wash over me at the mere thought of having to move in 18 months and the juggling of my job and home responsibilities, my boss called today. And can I just say that I love my boss. He is intense, but I truly respect the man. And he is talking 90 miles a minute and in the middle of "do this and read that" he says this...
How are you? Are you doing okay? Are you overwhelmed? Do you need me to hire you a some full time help?
Uhm. pump the breaks...Have you been reading my blog??? I KID I KID. One, he is not the blog readin kind of guy. Two, I would DIE of mortification. Three, I would be fired and thus eliminate the need for a full time assistant.
So,I looked toward the heavens and said YES!!!! And then did a happy dance in my office and blew kisses to God. But in a totally not weird way. I was very cool about it.
So, I am feelin better about work. And they give me a generous amount of vaca days, I am going to start taking them. And not even get out of my PJs those days.
Then I started to think about the Twerps -- are they okay? Are they peaceful? Is this affecting the "family unit" and I went in to check on the boys and this is what I found... They have crawled up in bed together and are about as sweet and confirming of my prayers and possible.
So as ET is curled up beside me as I type this and the boys are comforted by one another and fine, there was only one other person to worry about and be concerned with.